venting – just ignore me
Grania on Apr 22 2008 at 9:34 pm | Filed under: Venting
Today was stressful. My boss asked me for 3 things last week and I got exactly none of them done because of the trauma at work. I didn’t get to them over the weekend either, because I needed some personal space away from work. We took a hard hit last week and I needed to let go of the negativity. I did that reasonably successfully.
Yesterday was insane, but I got about 3/4 of the biggest project done. I got to work this morning and buckled down. I finished that one and the 2 others that took about half the time. Go me. Got it done.
I also helped someone else with another issue, for which she promptly chewed me out. Apparently because I helped too good, and the other person involved stole her thunder, but somehow that turned into my fault, for helping. Then she asked for another favor, and didn’t like how I handled that either. Damn, people are still grumpy.
Grumble
My job is helping. I’m support staff. I love it. I’m the best wingman (wingwoman?) that anyone at my company ever had. I don’t have an ego about it, as much as that last sentence sounds like I do. I learn my way through everything that I do and apply that cumulative knowledge to everything that I do next. If I don’t know how to proceed, I have no problem asking for advice and learning something. I have 14 years of history doing that. The previous CEO put me in my position because he trusted me not to fuck it up after someone else took control of my proverbial train and proceeded to run it off the track in a most spectacular way. They keep me around because I’m competent.
It’s tense at work, but we’re still a team. Most of the time. There’s a lot to cope with right now. People are stretched to the limit, and a couple have popped off at each other. I try to stay out of that. I’m trying to brush this one off as stress, because it is, but dang, don’t get pissed when I pull off a minor miracle to do something helpful. There is so much other stuff to be justifiably grumpy about.
Sigh.
Oh well.
I came home from work and took a nap, I needed that. We had a nice supper and I watched Idol on TiVo.
This week’s show was awesome. Andrew Lloyd Webber was the coach and I love musical theater. He’s the king of it. What an amazing composer. The Idols handled it pretty well. 4/6 of them were excellent. Anyone can sing pop music. It takes a musician to sing the hell out of a song from the theater. I’m slightly biased, I have a bit of theater and music in my background, and I spent a lot of time singing Andrew Lloyd Webber tunes backstage while preparing for our little productions of other shows. Those are some good memories. As far as Idol goes, being able to handle musical theater shows skill and flexibility. Two weeks ago the crowd took on Dolly Parton songs. That was a train wreck. This week redeemed them. There were some really good performances. I’ve got $10 on David Cook in the office pool. It’s going to come down to him vs. David Archileta. That will be interesting.
Idol also got me out of work grumpiness. I needed that jolt. Andrew Lloyd Webber is very cool.
Tomorrow’s another day.
It will be better than today.
